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This is a journal that I have made to place poems I like in, not all of them are mine but some are. Mine will usualy be labled as such but not are marked as mine. enjoy. :)
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Dec. 9th, 2006 @ 02:35 pm strong girls don't cry
i used to cry myself to sleep at night
because of the life i live that never seems right.
i try to be strong now
i fight back the tears
it should be easy now, from all of these years
i close my eyes tight
and tell myself strong girls don't cry
even though that is a lie
i yell people will think you're weak
that you are not strong at all
i put up this imaginary wall
to keep people from seeing in
I'm alright, i'm okay
to them that is what i say
i put on a fake a smile
and strike a pose
and hope to god it doesn't show
you cant handle it
nobody can
who can i trust
who wont tell
who will never stop caring once they know?
will they leave me alone?
must they always leave?
why cant for once someone stay with me?
this is why i cant cry because everyone always leaves my side.
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Dec. 9th, 2006 @ 02:31 pm beautiful suicide
She lives her life in pain and shame
wishing to go back from where she came
all she can do is smile and pretend
while her heart is far from being able to mend
she cuts her arms and wishes to say goodbye
all she wants now is to die
but people wont let her, they hold on to her tight
telling her that she can to win this fight.
she tries to believe them, she tries to be strong
but everything keeps turning out wrong.
everyday she continues to die inside
not sure she will be able to continue this ride.
she tries to fight the emotions, tries not to give in
but what can she do when her inner light begins to dim?
she no longer has the will to fight
she tries to hide by closing her eyes tight
she feels alone all the time
she can no longer pretend everything is fine
everyday she strikes a pose and dies inside
no one knows she is a beautiful suicide.
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Dec. 9th, 2006 @ 02:27 pm The Dragon's Spirit
Scales gleaming, nose steaming,
Neck stretched to the sky,
Muscles straining, energy gaining,
Wings beat strong to fly.

Talons long, each a prong,
All the teeth are sharp and white,
Internal fire, a noble sire,
A truly awesome site.

Flying by, you'll hear his cry,
Tail streaming right behind,
Very wise, tells no lies,
A jewel among his kind.

Close your eyes, release all ties,
See the colors bright within,
Deep inside, the dragon guide,
Will give you a big grin!

Join the fun, fly to the sun,
Upon the dragon's wings,
Feel the joy, both girl and boy,
As every dragon sings!
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Dec. 9th, 2006 @ 02:24 pm Raven
I am a solitary raven
A hermit of myself
I fly to no destination
A dark wanderer of the heavens

I follow no one
no one dares fallow me
I am the lonesome
A no one a nobody

I am the proof of darkness
A bleak bird of burden
I declare death
and ensnare birth

I am the mourner
A brackish tear
I see the sadness of this world
A follower of it’s ways.
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Dec. 9th, 2006 @ 02:21 pm (no subject)
I feel an ache when I hear your name,
I feel all alone and filled with pain,
I'm a bleak dark desert with no light to be seen,
Nothing grows, nothing shows,
It's a waste where I am.
I think about you and you don't exist.
You're not real, you're just thought like mist.
I call out to you in my loneliness and pain,
And all I hear is my voice answering back.
where are you?
Please come to me.
Feel my life with joy, get rid of this misery.
It's like a knife in my gut
And I can't breathe this darkness that's eating me up.
This loneliness tastes like bitter water.
It's sterile and cold.
It can't fill you up.
It leaves you empty.
I hear a bleak wind,
A sigh pass me by,
It's cold and fills me up till I'm nothing but ice.
No life, no love,
Nothing but me and I'm fading away.
Soon there will be nothing.
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Dec. 9th, 2006 @ 02:16 pm Dark Moon
(chant with a single drum)

Dark Moon, in the West,
Ancient drummin' poundin' in my chest,
Dancing Lady, sacred reel,
Dark Moon in the West.

Dark Moon, in the sky,
Tracing circles here below, tonight,
Old things fall away and die.
Dark Moon in the sky.

Dark Moon, overhead,
Veil of Life and Veil of Death.
Joined the endless dance, I did.
Dark Moon overhead.

Death must always follow birth
Herein see what your life is worth,
All things end to start again,
Dark Moon in the sky.
Dark Moon in the sky.
Dark Moon in the sky.
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Dec. 9th, 2006 @ 02:14 pm what it means to be blessed
Years ago, you sat me down
And told me you had to go away
You made me promise that the tears
Would last no more than a day

You confided I could still see you
Flying with an eagle in the sky
And if ever I came across a black stallion
To stop and say hi

You were so calm when you told me,
So proud and so strong
You would finally get to meet your Mom,
Long since passed on

You passed away in the morning
And the tears stayed more than a day
But the lessons that you taught me
Were never far away

I pray that you passed on to me
The gift that you posessed
You loved us more than you feared death
And we found what it means to be blessed
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Dec. 9th, 2006 @ 02:03 pm (no subject)
Holed away
Held by the moons sway
Far away from the fray
Not white nor black but grey
No one listens to what I say
The sun sets everyday
Is there more than one way
To hold the darkness at bay
So here I lay
Fading away
Into the grey
Amongst the fray
What would I say
If I had another day
If I could find a way
To keep all this death at bay
Instead here I lay.
In the ground
With the grass covering the burial mound.
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Dec. 9th, 2006 @ 02:01 pm the Maiden, the Mother, the Crone
From deep within my power spins
Against the gentle thrashing of the sea
I cannot help who I am the power calls to me.
In my mind I see her the wise old crone
Yet she is not old in my minds eye
She is young and beautiful yet powerful and deadly.
In the dark of night I hear her call
As the summer is approached by incoming fall.
The image shifts and now there are colors
Vibrant hues of red, gold, and brown.
The mother is turning
And the wise old crone is returning,
This is when the magick calls to me
When the moon is high and the tide is low
My power will all around me flow.
The time of rest is not yet here
But the winter will come and there will be nothing to fear
For whether she is the Maiden, the Mother, or the Crone
She will always be by your side so you are never alone.
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Dec. 9th, 2006 @ 01:57 pm Power of Rebirth
You Dance and Sing to the Witch's Rune
You twist and turn to the haunting tune
The circle is cast the magick begins.
The Earth trembles beneath your feet
The Air is cold but the Fire pure
The Water offers that inate cure.
To the hatred and distrust that is held inside
That flows and ebbs with the incoming tide.
The Energy is raised, now where to send it
The Fire of passion is now fully lit,
Emotions strong and pure pass in and out
They flow around you all about.
The drums beat faster the energy spins
Around and around till it has no where to go
The vibrations high no longer low.
You shout to the Goddess, exclaim her beauty
Throw your hands to the sky and let it go
Ground and Center become one with the earth
You have become one with the universe your rebirth.
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Dec. 9th, 2006 @ 01:52 pm A Prayer to My Goddess
Mother of mine, I stand before thee now
with a prayer to ask:
Mother of mine, Goddess of time
heal this heart broken,
with soft words spoken;
not the wind through the trees,
nor the moon in the sky,
give me words of comfort,
language to bring me to my knees:
kiss my brow with lips of flesh,
and hold my body with arms whole:
I am the child you birthed of
the clay of your womb,
the product of your flesh, and your blood:
I kneel before you now, broken and needing
give to me now, the comfort I am due
heal my broken heart and take me with you,
through the expanse of time and space;
Mother of mine, show me thine face
for I need now proof as ne'er before;
in this heartache and silent night,
your breath on the back of the wind
will not heal the cracks in my heart,
Give to me a greater gift,
your Kiss, your Touch, your Love,
Oh Mother, I need thee now,
Grant me comfort:
in your arms I will know
I am not alone;
unite me with the souls
who have shed the same tears of mine
Grant me only this, dearest Mother of mine.
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Dec. 9th, 2006 @ 01:51 pm One Last Time Again
with heels to give me the presence
i don't really have
and make-up to give me the confidence
i am lacking,
i approach him one last time,
greet him again as though
lifetimes haven't passed since last
we talked and loved and were;
with a smile i don't really feel,
i greet him and easily pretend
this insecurity i feel isn't real;
i stand in the cold of the night,
and with stars twinkling above,
i greet the first man to whom
i gave my childhood love;
how large we have grown,
since we were in love,
and how much more i wish i'd known
since i held him in love;
with the silent parking lot around us
i gaze into his eyes again,
and i realize i still love him now
as i did back then;
with i smile i don't really feel,
i take his hand and tell him it's good
to see him again and this is something
we should have done
years and years ago;
he smiles and tells me, he knows it's so
we should have stayed in touch,
we should have held on tighter,
but we pull away so soon,
and he sees it in my eyes
that i'm smiling a smile
i don't really feel
and i'm standing on heels
to give me the presence
i don't really have;
he sees it in my eyes
that i'm naked before him again,
as vulnerable as i was back then,
years have passed and i haven't grown
when he stares at me with those eyes
that pierces into the soul beneath;
i feel him read my every thought,
and wonder that he can still
rape my mind now the way he could then;
i have no secrets in his eyes,
my whole soul is exposed when he looks upon me;
those years i thought i'd spent without him,
suddenly mean nothing with one quick glance,
the woman i am sinks beneath
the smile he gives me,
and the confidence i have
disappears as he smiles and says,
it's been far too long;
and he knows he has me,
he always has.
he laughs and says,
it's good to see you,
you haven't changed;
he's reading my mind and he knows,
he has me.
he always has.
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Dec. 9th, 2006 @ 01:50 pm This is Not the Time
I speak with my Wiccan brethren
and they proclaim,
the time is well past nigh
that we shall surge up and take over,
rise up and correctly inform;
In covens and secret circles,
my Wican brethren proclaim,
it is past time for us to take up arms
and proclaim to the world that we mean no harm...

Lay down your arms, my brothers,
this is not the battle we are fighting.
Swallow your angry words, my brothers,
for they will not facilitate our victory;

Listen to the winds, my brethren,
For they speak with a wisdom
that far surpasses our own;
Listen to the lesson of the world,
that gives no matter what is taken;
Listen to the calm of the sea, my brothers,
And hear in its voice that we are not angry,
Let its reason reason with your anger,
For this is not the time.

This is not the time,
Our time has not yet come.
We fight to win a war,
That we are not yet destined to win;
Bite your tongue and listen to the world,
still young- proclaim its quiet wisdom,
its tides fade in and out,
its cycles pass quietly;

Take a lesson from the earth crying around you,
though raped and ploundered
it will not speak ill of those who harm it;
This is not the time,
This is not the time,
Stand still and listen,
Hear the earth calling all around you,
Be patient, for we are
But one more cycle yet to pass,
One more tide yet to fade,
Stand aside, my brethren,
This is not yet our day.
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Dec. 9th, 2006 @ 01:49 pm The Hills
When the moon and the stars are shining down on the hill,
And the wind, and the grass, and the trees are still,
When the heavens meet the ground in a circle of love,
This is when you are touched by the gods from above.

When the moon and the stars are shining down on you face,
And you wonder why you wondered about this sacred place,
When your hands meet his in a circle of love,
This is when you are touched by the gods from above.

When the moon and the stars are shinning down in your hearts,
And you know that this is where and when the love starts,
When your lips meet his in a circle of love,
This is when you are touched by the gods from above.

When the moon and the stars are shining down on the hill,
And the winds, and the grass, and the trees are still,
When your body meets his in a circle of love,
This is when you are touched by the gods from above.
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Jan. 7th, 2006 @ 11:21 am A Dove
There was a place I used to dwell,
Were I met this boy I loved so well,
He came to me and stole my heart,
He said we would never be apart,
But then he surpised me by placing a stanger upon his knee,
I walked home at night with out a single word,
My beating heart was all i heard,
My father came home late that night,
And looked for me both left and right,
But all he saw was the door he broke,
To see me hanging by a rope,
On the desk was a note,
And the note read:
Dig a grave, dig it deep, marble stone from head to feet,
And on the stone please, please, please place a dove to show the world I died for love.
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Jan. 7th, 2006 @ 11:17 am Just a Child
Just a child with trust in her eyes
Just a child with no knowledge of lies
Looking with love at a man she adored
Trusting him wholy as he spoke of the lord
Believing he loved her and he really cared
Scared of his power and misunderstood
What was the bad and what was the good

He told her he loved her and made her do things
Then he gave her presents like clothes and gold rings
Washing her brain with right and wrong
Holding her down and he was so strong
What was he doing oh no not my dad
This can't be right but he said it's not bad
Daddy just loves you it's the right thing to do
But you used and abused me oh yes it was you

Now she is grown up and trying to live
Showing her children all the love she can give
Leading them gently and holding their hands
But she'd never hurt them cause she understands
What her dad did to her she now knows was wrong
But it took years of heartache and having to be strong

Yes she made her own life but not without pain
It took her such effort to trust men again
But she met the right man and he helped her along
And somedays there are bright skies and she hears a song
In her heart she trust him but she finds it hard
For the first man she put faith in she was soon to find
Broke her heart and her spirit and even her mind
Can she ever forgive him or even his kind

Well she wants to go on now she wants to believe
So the past must be hidden a new life she must lead
And with help from her children and husband and friends
She carries on forward until the pain ends.
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Nov. 12th, 2005 @ 12:48 pm ???
The rope that's wrapped around me
Is cutting through my skin
And the doubts that have surrounded me
Are finding their way in.
I keep it close to me,
Like a holy man prays.
In my desperate hour
It's better that way.

~Melissa Etheridge
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Nov. 12th, 2005 @ 12:45 pm Moonlight Whispers (written by me in 5th grade)
a horse in a dream
like a phantom messanger
coming in the night
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Nov. 12th, 2005 @ 12:40 pm this is also by me but untitled based off a pic but i can't upload it so sry
She stands below and old dark tree,
It bends and creaks and boughs.
Looking over a stormy sea,
Lost deep in her thoughts.

The sun’s shadow still aglow,
As the moon begins to rise.
The wind gives a mighty blow,
With strength that stings her eyes.

A lone tear trickles down her cheek,
At the beauty her eyes behold.
Her throat seems to choked to speak,
As she watches the sky turn colors bold.

Her once cold heart grows warm again,
As it relives the love it once knew.
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Nov. 12th, 2005 @ 12:39 pm My Heart (this one is by me)
A smile will tell,
A thousand words.
A frown will tell me two.
Your laugh would tell me,
A thousand things.
But that just isn’t you.
A single glance,
A thousand thoughts.
But none of them sound right.
So I will wait,
To catch your glance.
And then maybe see the light.
See that the smiles and laughs,
Don’t mean a thing.
For it’s you my love,
That my heart does sing.
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Nov. 12th, 2005 @ 12:38 pm I will forget you..
It will be easy to forget you...
I just can't look to the sky
or even remember the sea...
I'll just have to stop dreaming
and learn how to be alone...
I know I'll forget you..
I just can't remember your smile..
your beautiful eyes,
your sweet mouth...
I can do it,
I know I can...
I just can't look to anything,
I just can't remember,
I just can't live...
or love...
I'll forget how important you are on my life...
I'll just have to forget myself...
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Oct. 26th, 2005 @ 07:44 pm randomness
I've built walls,
A fortress deep and mighty,
That none may penetrate.
I have no need of friendship; friendship causes pain.
It's laughter and it's loving I disdain.
I am a rock,
I am an island.
And a rock feels no pain;
And an island never cries.

~Simon and Garfunkel
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Oct. 21st, 2005 @ 06:21 pm It Wasn't Beacuse of You
This perfect uninterrupted moment was flawless in all its beauty. He said he loved her, and she replied trying to make him understand the extent to how deeply she means it. Nothing would come between them. And she askes herself everyday... what went wrong?

In seconds she sat up, tears falling down her disfiguered face. She tried so hard to hold them back, that she couldn't even force the words out. 'Its not your fault... it's me'
Haunted by her past the flash-backs were so real. She covered herself completely to disguise her ugly, dirty, foul figure and maybe to hide her soul. She had nothing to hide from him, they're the match people only dream about. He whispered to her and held her close, her security returned but the tears did not dry.

She hates crying, what a weakness, especially for no reason. And what reason was this? A dillusion from her past, her formiddable being. She wants so badly to tell him that she's sorry and that it wasn't his fault... but he understands her and everything is closed and put away.

A fool she was, for confusing the past with the present, there is no comparison. She's ready to take the jump... because now she knows, there is someone to catch her
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Oct. 21st, 2005 @ 06:20 pm Giving In
And He looks into her broken eyes
Filled with all the pain and lies
Takes her hand and leads her demise
Replaces all her lows with highs

Her hurt fading, it dissolves
Into bliss her life resolves
She's letting all the truth back in
She's getting rid of all the sin

Starting to let herself trust
Peeling off healed wounds, a crust
Lighting a candle in her dark sight
She won't give up without a fight

She cant resist, she feeds her sorrow
Maybe the sun will bring a better tomorrow?
The moon glows upon her face
Her life means nothing, she is a waste

A child of the universe
Struggling to converse
Blowing minds, shrapnel of soul
Her games are just her living role

Justified, her thoughts provoke
She builds up courage, she begins to choke
Not strong enough to see this through
Giving up... what she wants to do
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Oct. 21st, 2005 @ 06:17 pm Untitled Eulogy
She fades,
An unfortunate part of what she has made
She's drained,
As she lies on her life which she has stained

Jaded, my jaded,
Hold on and you can make it
Pain cries all the lies
Poison to her distant lives

Centred attention,
Misconceived perception
They pull and tear your dignity
Run my life, my serenity

We're losing her now
I thought I knew her, how?
How didn't I see it all?
Stand back, and watch myself fall
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Oct. 21st, 2005 @ 06:16 pm I Turned My Back, As He Left
I turned my back, as he left
I had no reason to stand and watch
So that he could watch me cry?
I had no reason to wave goodbye
I turned my back, as he left
I'm sure he was waiting for me to look back
I walked the long route, fearing love and fearing hate
I lit up a cigarette, as I walked far from the gate
My heart said its long forgotten memories
And a whole lifetime to be re made in a year
A burden I was to him
I wipe away the tear
The single tear that turned into an ocean
For my best friend that let me down
He left me and I lost everything
In my head his voice still drowns
I turned my back, as he drove away
I did not care to give a smile
A smile that he created
If I wanted, I could have faked it
You can read of all the heart ache
You can ask people their advice
But dad, what I went through
Incomparable to those you knew
I really really loved you
I promise my heart was true
I dont understand how you could leave me
After all that we'd been through
I'm sure you are oblivious
To my pain, you can only guess
But I couldnt take just one more reminder
So I turned my back, as you left
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Oct. 21st, 2005 @ 06:12 pm Forever Rest
Upon thou bed, lay and fall
Rest my friend, for thee stands tall
Countless pleasures my companion
Continue your adventures on gods canyon
Hand in hand we've walked these years
We've laughed at trouble even though feared
You've held me dear, but on our depart
I give to you my wounded heart
For no one knows me with such intimacy
No one knows surreal; from me
The ghost of what they want to see
The artist moulding what I want to be
Uopn thou bed, lay and fall
Rest my friend, I loved you above all
For I was just the physical bowl
That could retain your unwanted heart and soul
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Oct. 21st, 2005 @ 06:12 pm If?? Me? You?
So when I walk from this light to grey
Do you think Im walking away?
And when I ask for reassurance
Do you think I dont trust you?
Or me??

And when my whole existence is being questioned by life
And the resistance is hard to resist my knife
Do you think Its an easy choice?
Keeping to you or refraining from voice?

Is it just me, or do you think about it too?
Do you know that I love you as much as you do?
Please control this feeling of confusion,
This eternal dark and complete frustration?

Its just me who knows how to fix it
But when i have to make the cut
There's always that one and only 'but'?
If?? Me? you?

Clearance, clarity is all I ask
And in my mind we're meant to last
Dont hate me for being outspoken
Just kiss me from this nightmare, when Ive awoken

Its not what I want... this decision
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Oct. 15th, 2005 @ 03:33 pm Samhain Night
When the white moon chants its soft melody
On a silent Samhain night
Look for those who go by darkness
And those who go by light

Sing a song for the beloved dead
Who this night they walk the Earth
And for the Lord of the Sun
May he wake in blissful birth
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Oct. 15th, 2005 @ 03:29 pm to all of you
I visualize the outcome, and the beauty that it seeds,
I feel energy spring through me, out from what this heart can bleed,
I am calm within the comfort, that it already exists,
I watch for the coincidence, that will bring it into bliss.
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Oct. 15th, 2005 @ 03:25 pm I
i only cry for this one soul
i only weep for this one heart
i sit here in this corner cold
and let myself be torn apart
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Oct. 15th, 2005 @ 03:25 pm The Wrath Of Hecate
Hecate visits me on the dark night of the moon,
I hear her hounds approaching as they creep into my room,

She enters through my nightly dreams,the visions seem so real,
But when i reachout to touch her..tis her coldness that i feel,

She summonds me to sit with her beneath a cypress tree,
And as we sit a tattered book is placed in front of me,

My attention is upon her as she begins to read,
For endless nights she roams in search of souls in desperate need.
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Oct. 15th, 2005 @ 03:23 pm to kiss a witch
What does it mean to kiss a witch
Beneath a magic moon
Hold her close till comatose
From the spasms of her swoon
What awaits this chosen mate
When dawn embraces day
Wake to shake a shadow's fate
And cry out as if prey
My heart now gone it went along
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Oct. 15th, 2005 @ 03:22 pm Male Witch
Thy Male Witch,
You are a stag of seven tines,
You are a wild flood on the plain,
You are a wind on the deep waters,
You are a tear the Sun lets fall,
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Oct. 14th, 2005 @ 08:47 pm Sit
I want her to be so happy
Yet she is so sad
I want her to be secure
Yet she is surrounded by fear

I watch in anger and fear
I watch; my eye's start to tear
As he watches her, under control
The beast that guards the beauty
The beauty behind the wall
As I plot to slay this beast
I sit, I watch, I fear

Her every laugh and smile
Give's me the power
Strengthen's my will
My will to go on
As I sit, I watch, I fear

But does she see
That she can esacpe
As she is trapped there
Trapped in sadness and fear
Does she see? Can She see?
That she can escape!
That it's possible!
So, As I plot so slay this beast
I sit, I watch, I fear...
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Oct. 14th, 2005 @ 08:40 pm Cold
There I lay
With my arms around my knees
Confused, Cold, and Afraid
Where will I go???
I have nowhere left to turn
Left to die in the Cold
Or become part of it

I choose to live
Becoming one with the Cold
To live as ice, to never feel
My heart froze over
Everything has gone numb
The fire that once burned in me
Is nothing more but Cold ashs

I walk the world
Alive, but liveing alone
I do not feel the knife
Tearing through my flesh
Not a tear I cry
As I rip out her throat
My heart is ice

I watch you all
As you live your lives
You see me, but I dont care
There is nothing left in this place
That can cause me pain
I feel only cold, the looks you give mean nothing
Hate, Anger, Love: it means nothing

Than I see him
And the ice melts off my heart
The warmth washes over me
The sudden change in me
Causes pain beyond belief
And yet it feels good...
Because I can feel again...

I live again
Trying to repay the damage I've done
I will gladly work my whole life
Just to pay the debt I owe
I know what I've done
But I no longer have to fear
To be left out in the Cold
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Oct. 12th, 2005 @ 01:18 pm Feel the Pain and Heal Thyself
Into the darkness we run,
To escape from pain and truth,
You live in darkness to avoid
The ultimate choice of healing

We all have the power to heal ourselves
It is a choice we make

Why do we choose to hurt and wallow in our pain?
It is easy that is why.

The most difficult choice is to decide to heal thyself.
To heal is to feel pain
And to feel pain is to actually be alive.

I choose to feel the pain,
so that I may heal myself of this loss.
Always choose to feel !
When you have no feelings; then you are dead!

Lift up your heart and your mind and go make that choice,
Feel the pain and Heal thyself today!
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Oct. 12th, 2005 @ 01:15 pm Circle Call
As I walk the circle round
I cast my circle on the ground.
In this place of sacred space
I call the ancients down

Come to me this night.
Help me in my rite
As we do cast,
this spell of ancients past.
I call and summon round
the ancients to this ground.

Come to me,
and you will see
the power of "We"
I do summon thee.
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Oct. 12th, 2005 @ 01:15 pm When darkness falls
When darkness falls my dreams call
fear travels my entire body
I can feel haste all around me
as i taste the dampness surrounding me

my lips moist
and teeth chattering, freezing, and shivering
at every sound.

One drop on my shoulder
I jump and turn around

----nothing----

but the blackness, I fall back to my knees.
Thousands of screams and pleas fill my mind.
I cover my ears and close my eyes then
streams of tears seem
to be bleeding from my eyes.

These tears , these screams and pleas
from these souls are peircing me

every time
Darkness Falls.
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Oct. 9th, 2005 @ 09:45 pm She bears the pentacle
Her worship is of nature,
its where she finds her peace.
She honours its cycles
eight times a year,
sometimes with a feast.

She reads from a range of sources,
so she can know her craft.
And she'll have the answers
to the questions,
others will eventually ask.

But secret still is her practice,
from now till time is right.
Though some she knows
have an inkling,
for why she light candles at night.

Though quiet she keeps her religion,
some people still can tell.
For round her neck
for all of time,
she bears the pentacle.
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Oct. 9th, 2005 @ 09:45 pm Apologies all sound the same
Will try to catch up tomorrow
If not I will drop you a line
I have heard this all before
Its been said time after time

Another one of his let downs
Later he will try to explain
Saying his week was busy
Apologies all sound the same

Am I the last thing on his mind
It seemed that way to me
Another promise is broken
I receive yet another apology

Each one repeats like an echo
Apologies sent with regrets
What was he trying to justify
When I am the one he forgets
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Oct. 9th, 2005 @ 09:26 pm True Love Never Dies
True love shall always last
No matter if ever it may end
One cannot unlove those in the past
And emotion with time shall bend

But remember those all the rest
Who ever have shown you the light
Though love from them was not the best
They fill you with lasting might

One cannot unlove those in the past
And emotion with time shall bend
True love shall always last
For truly, it never will end.
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Oct. 9th, 2005 @ 09:19 pm Wish
I wish I was strong
I wish I was free
I wish you were here
Right beside me

I feel so alone
Like no one is there
I have no one to love
For you don’t care

I’m trapped in my mind
Of horrible thoughts
Of what you’ve done to me
You aren’t who I thought

I sit here on my own
Thinking of what you’ve done
Is it my fault?
That you are gone

For now I wish
My dream will come true
The only thing I know
Is that I still love you

For now I wish
For you……
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Oct. 9th, 2005 @ 09:15 pm The Mirror
The Mirror
reflects
all that's vain

The Mirror
reflects
all your pain

The Mirror
reflects
all your needs

The Mirror
reflects
all your greed

The Mirror
reflects
all your dreams

The Mirror
reflects
all your screams
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Oct. 1st, 2005 @ 08:28 pm If I Died Tomorrow
If I died tomorrow
Would you miss me, dear?
Would you notice my absence?
Or even cry a tear?

If I died tomorrow
Would you love me still?
Or would you not forgive me
For taking the suicide pill?

If I died tomorrow
Would you weep and mourn?
Would you think I'm better off now
Because my soul was torn?

I wrote this final poem just for you
So I could say goodbye.
To apologize for everything
And that I had to die.
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Oct. 1st, 2005 @ 08:28 pm alone in the darkness
i sit alone in the darkness wondering,waithing my soul torn apart my heart riped in two and as i run that cold blade accross my wrist
i look back back on that 16 years of hell i called a life so worthless so pointlessn and so depressing.
my family my friends my lover what will they care they never knew me no one did
i sit alone in the darkness pouring crimson regreat waiting for my death
i think what is it all about why are we here cursed to walk this hell called earth its almost my time to leave this place
i close my eyes and waitas i sit alone in the darkness.
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Oct. 1st, 2005 @ 08:21 pm Bullying is wrong
I am the person who walked home alone.
I am the person who sat on my own.
I am the person who dreaded school.
I am the person who did not want to play.

I am the person who had no friends.
I am the person you said had no trend.
I am the person you pushed around.
I am the person who made NO sound.

I am the person who got all the blame.
I am the person who you called lame.
I am the person you made cry.

You are the person who ruined my life.
I am the person who wanted to die.
You are the person who made this all true.
And now i committed suicide because of you...
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Oct. 1st, 2005 @ 08:20 pm Hush little baby
Hush little baby don't make a sound
I can hear daddy creeping around
And if daddy finds us here
We might not live to see next year

Please little baby don't make a fuss
Or daddy will surely make a mess of us
Sleep little baby I promise you
If you hush up now this promise is true

After daddy leaves we will run away
And he'll be looking for us everyday
Yes little baby daddy finally gave up
As I grab all your things and your sippy cup

Now little baby we will hit the road
can’t you see how easily that flowed
Now little baby we are on our way
Daddy isn’t going to find us no not today
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Oct. 1st, 2005 @ 08:16 pm Trapped
I'm trapped in this body
Of a person I don't know

Trapped in a world of fighting
Where nothing seems to go

I just want to escape
This body in this world

I just want to be me
Without hiding my personality
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Oct. 1st, 2005 @ 08:12 pm honesty
Pieces scattered on the ground
A reflection of my own face
A mirror; shattered; weighs me down
The shards of an intricate lace

If only I could find a way
To make the shape they used to be
To put them all back together
To make me whole, to make me, me

The tears that etch my face
Is the reflection that I see
The bruises on my cheeks
Is the truth, the truth of me

If only someone would understand
The pain I hold inside
If they could look into the mirror
The mirror that never lies

If they looked deep enough
To see that special part
They would see that the mirror is not a mirror
The mirror is my heart
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